She took it carefully like it might fall apart.
"I made you something."
"We don't yell here," he added. "Daddy says yelling makes the house forget how to breathe..."
Her jaw tightened. She blinked, but said nothing.
We sat at the kitchen table. Anna had made tea and banana bread, and the warm scent filled the small space.
My mother barely touched her cup.
"We don't yell here."
"This could've been different. You could have been someone, something. You could have been great, Jonathan."
"I am someone, Mom," I said. "I just stopped performing for you, for the one person who never clapped for me."
My mother's mouth opened, then closed. She looked down at the drawing. From across the table, Aaron smiled at me, and from next to me, Anna squeezed my knee.
"My father said the same thing when I brought your father home, you know? He said I was throwing everything away. And when he left me..."
"I just stopped performing for you."
She swallowed hard before speaking again.
"I built a life you couldn't question, Jonathan. I thought if everything was flawless, no one would leave. Not like he did. I thought control meant safety."
"You lost us anyway," I said, keeping my gaze on her. "And that was because you didn't give us any choice."
She didn't deny it. For the first time in my life, my mother looked at me without trying to fix something.
"You lost us anyway."
Anna, who had said almost nothing during the visit, finally looked across the table.